A year has passed!

It has been a year.
Time has flown.
Memories haven't.
Grief stays, unmoved.
Pain stays, not any lessened.

It was this day, a year back.
When you held my hand and talked to me.
And cried.
And then left us, forever.

We love you more as days fly.
We miss you more as months run.
If ever possible, will you come back to us?

Miss you like hell, Thatha!


Tears,
Your Sharmi

Hmm..

Oh, the days just refuse to move.
I'm pushing them.
May be I need to try harder.

Forever, will miss you...

It has been 261 days since you left us.

It’s been so long.

And I still can’t believe that you’re not with us anymore.

No matter how hard I try

Not to think of you or cry,

Here I am crying, inconsolably.

Our home has never been this sad.

Never this lonely.

Never.

No one to love, like you did.

No one to care, the way you did.

We miss you, Thatha.

Beyond words.

But I can write about nothing else.

And I know this feeling isn’t just for now.

But forever. Forever.

We've stepped into a new year.

But without you.

We miss you, Thatha!

111 days of Without-you

I just turned 22 today 

And I feel so grown up...

I miss your gift, 

I miss your blessings,

I miss your presence,

For this is my first birthday without you!!

I miss you, Thatha...!!!

Do you see me crying every night talking to you?

Do you see how I look around the house in search of you, missing you?

Did you see me see your photo and cry, this morning??

Did you see me smile when it rained, thinking it is you wishing me for my birthday?

Hundreds of people wished me today,

Made me smile and jump around,

I was all excited and happy,

But missed you so terribly!!

It's 111 days since you left the world.

111 days of grief and tears, it has been.

Always loved.

Forever.

Your absence haunts...

Our new home is so big and lovely,

Sadly it’s kind of lonely;

The shrill silence fills my ears,

The grief in the heart well concealed,

Choosing to burst through tears every night,

And hide behind smiles almost all day,

The loss still unbearable...

I miss you, Thatha...

I don’t want to ask you why you left us...

Because I know you didn’t want leave us either...

Your absence is loud and conspicuous,

My mind narrowing down to the best moments with you...

Oh, Thatha...

How much you dreamed to live in this house!

And how you didn’t get to see it well!

And how you missed to live here with us

To have made memories for me to cherish!

I miss you every day, Thatha.

Will I ever believe the fact that you’re not coming back??

You’re still not so dead.

Living in the hearts of us all.

Forever we love you.

Forever.

A rainy thought...

As the dark clouds besieges the mightier sky,

Like how the eyelid closes on a eye,

Giving darkness and just that;

The wind is blowing its best,

Turning the weather balmy;

As I walk through the lonely streets,

Looking up to see the gray clouds moving,

Enjoying the rain drops falling around,

A lot of thoughts chase my mind...

The clouds look so full of dark angst,

Yet it isn't raining much,

Just like my heart feeling heavier,

But knowing I haven’t grieved enough,

Knowing I want to cry more...

For someone who left the world...

And is never going to come back...

My steps slow down as I realize

Life is just like days,

Little sunny,

Little rainy,

Sometimes dull,

Sometimes windy,

Never the same forever...